Isn't it sad that we're all so young, yet we're so depressed, alone, forgotten, paranoid, judgmental and afraid of the future? What happened to being young, living life, having fun and not giving a fuck?
Do you ever feel as if you want to escape from your body, you can’t take being a part of yourself anymore, that you just want to run away from yourself…? That you hate yourself so much you can’t take it anymore? … Or is that just me„
So i’ve had my Tumblr for about a week now and still haven’t posted anything. I’m not going to lie and say i have nothing to post because i do. I’ve just been too scared to post something. But i’ve decided that i’m ready. Ready to let the world know about what i think about myself.
I honestly HATE myself. I hate that i let myself get to this point. Everytime i look in a mirror i either want to cry or actually do. i think i’m the uglyest and fattest person to walk this earth. I’m super insicure and unhappy. Lately i’ve been trying to loose weight. People have started telling me that i look really thin. But i don’t see it. I feel the same. But i’m going to keep loosing weight until i see what others see. No matter the consequences.
I just want to be happy again. And i feel like looking the way i want to look will make me happy. So that’s what i’m going to do, no matter how long it takes. I WILL be HAPPY again.